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New Year, New Life, New Everything.

I may not be where I want to be. At this moment, I am closer to my goals than I have been in a long time

It is 2018, and I almost can’t believe how fast the last year came and went. It’s been a hell of a ride for myself personally. I hope to one day share with all of you, my journey. I’ve cried, had frequent bouts of insomnia, lost friends, and gained agency. I look back at what I’ve gone through the last year, and can’t even believe the person that I’m becoming. For the first time in my life, I can wholeheartedly state that I’m content with where I am.

I’m not here to cheese up this post. If 2017 taught me anything, it’s that I (an individual) have the ability to change the direction of my life at any point in time. Don’t ever wait for a new day, week, month, years to make change. There will never be a right time to do something. If you wait until you’re ready, you will be waiting for eternity. I can promise you that. I may not be where I want to be. At this moment, I am closer to my goals than I have been in a long time.

Don’t fall into the trap of believing that your circumstances are incapable of change or improvement, it will happen, not always when you want it to

I’m going into this new year (and I encourage you too as well) with the mindset that I will, and I can. I can achieve my goals, and I will work hard to get to where I am going. Practice patience and humility, because many people lack those two qualities. Stay true to myself, work with integrity, and hold myself accountable for my actions. The goals and dreams that I will achieve may not happen when I want them to, but will happen when they need to.

I’ve stopped believing the idea that “what is meant for you, will come to you” because I’ve learned that nothing in this world is impossible. Nothing is out of my reach, the only obstacle that I have is myself. If I have the ability to set up my barriers, I have the ability to tear them down. Don’t fall into the trap of believing that your circumstances are incapable of change or improvement, it will happen, not always when you want it to. Make yourself open to new and wonderful opportunities this year.

(the following is an excerpt from an essay I wrote)

My goals and dreams will happen when they need to happen, and when they occur… I will embrace them, wholeheartedly

“I learned that I’m not some flawless human being that doesn’t have problems. I have areas that, even though I wouldn’t want to admit it…  they need to improve. Acknowledging that I did need to change my ways, and not remain rigid. If I continue to stifle myself, because I’m uncomfortable with change… I’ll never get to where I want to be in my life. Change isn’t a bad thing, especially if it’s because I want to improve myself.

My goal at this point is to not hold myself back from potential opportunities. To not shrink myself to make other people comfortable. I have always valued the opinions of other people in an unhealthy way. I felt like that made me remain stagnant, so I felt stuck for a really long time. I’m a big believer in manifestation, and part of being able to manifest goals is making sure your actions are in line with what you want to achieve.

Another goal is to remind myself that I’m running on my own time. My clock is my own, and to not compare the pace of my life to others. I have been guilty of this behavior for a long time. I’m slowly learning to let go of that because I know that comparing my clock to someone else’s will only block the blessing that are meant for me. Focus on my actions, my life, and eventually everything will fall into place. I believe in that.

In the future (near and far) I’ll promise to not be so hard on myself. There will be times when I will fail, and succeed. Realize that I’m going to lose (and win)  at some point in time, and only external forces know when those moments will happen. All I can do I worry about my happiness, align myself and my goals with the universe. My goals and dreams will happen when they need to happen, and when they occur… I will embrace them, wholeheartedly.”

XOXO, Crystal Emme

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